"let me forget about today 
until tomorrow"

fear the goat from the front,
the horse from the rear, 
and man from all sides.
-russian proverb

(thanks to the lady at the coffee shop and andrea britze.)


dreamers are believers
I will remember the kisses
our lips raw with love
and how you gave me
everything you had
and how I
offered you what was left of
me,
and I will remember your small room
the feel of you
the light in the window
your records
your books
our morning coffee
our noons our nights
our bodies spilled together
sleeping
the tiny flowing currents
immediate and forever
your leg my leg
your arm my arm
your smile and the warmth
of you
who made me laugh
again. 
 Charles Bukowski
Rowing the campground up by the lake where we swam.
We were hunting for snakes,
but we couldn't find them.
Surrounded by nothing,
but the nothing's surrounded by us.
But it's just me in my room,
with my eyes shut.

When I was seventeen,
my mother said to me
"Don't stop imagining. The day that you do is the day that you die."
Now I pull a wanton carriage,
instead of the horses, grazing along.
I was having fun.
We were all having fun.

My brain kicking faster than I can,
but not fast enough.
Who is there to talk to
that won't lock me up?
At least God doesn't judge me by the thoughts that I find,
the snakes I couldn't find,
I don't want to find.

When I was seventeen,
my mother said to me
"Don't stop imagining. The day that you do is the day that you die."
Now I pull a wanton carriage,
instead of the horses, grazing along.
I was having fun.
We were all having fun.

youth lagoon- seventeen
I
exist

and he said to me,
"expectations are not a fault, they are a standard."

it's easier to
beg forgiveness
than 
ask permission.

nothing about me
without me.
the supremes- baby love
WORD of the DAY:

Welt·schmerz[velt-shmerts]

noun German .
1) sorrow that one feels and accepts as one's necessary portion in life; sentimental pessimism.
2) mental depression or apathy caused by comparison of the actual state of the world with an ideal state.


words are whispers.
actions are sirens.
luau in january
postcard from brooklyn

andrew bird- happy day
he had yet to realize:
one can not get to know someone solely based on 
only one of the member's terms;
no partnership can come of such self-centered nature.
i take my boots for walks.
i will breathe
again.
"distance has a way
of making
love
understandable"
this is my newest little idea that came to life.
using a palette knife, i painted the background with a few layers of blue on watercolor paper.
i then hand-stitched that little balloon of love with a very thick needle (as to not bend it as i pierced the thick paper).
manifest 
kindness 
goodness
sweetness
happiness 
loveliness
hopefulness
"arriving from always, 
you'll go away everywhere."
-arthur rimbaud
You will remember that leaping stream
where sweet aromas rose and trembled,
and sometimes a bird, wearing water
and slowness, its winter feathers.
You will remember those gifts from the earth:
indelible scents, gold clay,
weeds in the thicket and crazy roots,
magical thorns like swords.
You’ll remember the bouquet you picked,
shadows and silent water,
bouquet like a foam-covered stone.
That time was like never, and like always.
So we go there, where nothing is waiting;
we find everything waiting there. ❞
Pablo Neruda
 
"patience is also a form of action."
"meaning is not in things,
but in between them."
love is worth the search.
why'd you let me go?
walk off the earth- 
anything can change;
there are so few absolutes in this world.
"impatience is a good indicator that you are not experiencing."
 no, i can't kiss you;
if i gave my lips frivolously then i would have lost and ached in absolute vain.
i am my breath.
i am my breath.
i am my breath.
last american buffalo- yucca bacatta
this is my friend's band.
babes.